Ethics

Don't know why I'm saying anything about this here other than to just update my blog and such because the goddess alone knows that I'm not going to get a good response, if any.

For those of you not interested, turn away. It's Pagan time.

So, I know this guy who's, shall we say, less than ethically minded. To take it a bit further, let's say that, in the past he's done things that most people would blanch at and totally say to themselves, "dude, that guy is evil incarnate." Well, he happens to also be someone who follows paganism and likes to dress himself up as the be all and end all of knowledge where it comes to magick, the goddess, and everything else the religion covers.

This is the nicest way I can respond to that kind of mindset: He's further from the truth than he could ever hope to be.

I know I'm not perfect. And I know that I'm fallible and prone to making bad decsisions. But knowing that puts me about three steps ahead of him. It's entirely possible that I carried more than a little christian ideals with me when I switched to paganism. But, I know that the goddess loves me, watches me, and judges me as she see's fit. So, if I do something I shouldn't, I know it, she knows it, and I'm gonna pay for it at some point. This person, though, doesn't quite understand this concept. For that, he's suffered for it. I hate to sound... oh, I dunno, judgemental, but I know what I know. And, I know he has AIDS. And I can't help but think that it's his punishment for all the things he's done in his past to hurt people just to entertain himself, get what he wanted, and any other reason he had. I feel bad saying, that, but only just a little. Because, deep down, I know it's the truth.

But, anyway, he's got himself this kid (all of 16) who's interested in learning "things" that if anyone were to teach him, the last person I'd feel comfortable teaching him would be my aforementioned friend who we're going to call Danny for sake of keeping things straight (ha!) for the avid reader who's following me down this rabbit hole I'm digging.

So, Danny is "training" this 16 year old boy. I met him recently when Danny came by to pick up a ham my mom was giving Danny. I took one look at the boy and I knew there was a mistake of some kind being made somewhere. I think he's being taught more about the fun stuff and none of the ritual, the meaning, or the understanding one must have in order to truely follow this narrow religeous path we find ourselves on.

I just don't think it's a good idea for him to be teaching anyone anything. The life he's lived is more or less corrupt and everything he touches eventually is destroyed by his own self-destructiveness.

So, I think I'm going to just take three big steps back and pretend I'm not interested and keep to myself. I know I should probably step in and do something (like I have in the past) but this time, I'm just too far away to do any good.

In other news (speaking of ethics) calling the lawyer tomorrow and getting the law suit started. I'm wanting to aim for about $1 million (think big) but I'm expecting to get much less than that in a settlement. Unless something really good happens. And, like I told my mom, if my dad's wife decides to get in the action, I'm going to nicely tell her to back the fuck off. She got everything else. This is ours. If she wants to get in on this, then I'll be filing a second law suit to contest my fathers will.